Monday, August 13, 2012

Part 3 - The Story of my Life

What follows in these tales from My life is a story I need to write. A story of life and drama that I long to write down. Not only for myself, but also as a reminder of things gone by. It is a story of forming and shaping and intrigue . But primarily it is a story about hope. If you choose to tread these pages with me, do so with reverence and kindness because one does not write these things lightly. If you are one who has the need to flirt a little with being nosy then perhaps you should pass by this story. For it is true and full. It needs not your judgement nor your advice. But if you want to read on, then read it as a novel should be read. For it is but just one story among many.



The Federation

My grandparents both worked, which in those times, in the late 60’s and 70’s was indeed unusual. They worked at their own business which was housed on the property on which we lived. The organization was called The Federation of the Covenant People.  It was a religious organization which had its roots and thinking firmly planted in nationalism and racism. My grandfather was the main” preacher” and he held meetings and wrote articles and gave lectures on the merits of his view of the bible. His views excited and drew those in the wider Joburg community of similar views as well as from other countries. Most of these people were kind and even sweet on the outside. My grandparents were deeply racist and openly anti – Semitic. I grew up hearing and being told of all the wrongs of certain groups as apposed to others. And yet for some strange reason I rejected their ideas at an early age. I suspect this was because despite my grandparents thinking that they were upright and supreme they were simply unable to protect a 4 year old little girl in their care. Nothing like the reality of trauma and abuse at the hands of those who are so sure of their self righteousness makes one question their beliefs.

My grandparents were very much a part of my early life. My grandmother was a large woman who continually battled the war of the bulge. She died her hair regularly, smoked the same brand of cigarettes that came in a flat while box with silver foil paper on the inside. I loved the small of those boxes and used to collect them to keep things in. She was a clever woman who ruled her husband in a subtle but clear way. Her marital advice to my mother was that my mom should be the one who made the decisions but that she should let my dad think he had. Much like the words from My Big Fat Greek Wedding. “The man is the head but the woman is the neck. She an turn the head anyway she wants to.”

My grandmother liked to play cards and bet using matchsticks as the money. One of the things we loved was to play this game with her. She had a gloriously heart laugh and loved a good joke. I loved her very much and enjoyed spending time with her despite the cool undercurrents and strange thinking she had.

My Grand father was a bubbly person. He had enjoyed life on the stage singing opera as well as wrestling at some point. He loved an audience and I suppose that is what drove him into the work at The Federation.  He was a deeply proud and selfish man. He loved to eat burnt food which with hindsight was probably his downfall.  Towards the end of his life he grew very quiet. He died of cancer one night with my dad at his bed side. All the greatness attributed him by my grandmother had vanished and he was alone to face his death.

Both my grandparents loved to drink brandy and ginger ale.  It was one of their signature drinks. They were of the most generous people I knew. They had little of their own but would always share with us that which they had. Christmas time was an example of this. They would buy us children all that our hearts possibly could desire. The gigantic tree brimming with gifts galore. My parents in comparison could never afford to give us half the toys and other stuff that my grandparents dished out. My grandfather was the controlling conductor of the Christmas event. He would dish out his gifts with a gigantic smile attached to his face, taking great pleasure in this act. It was totally over the top and yet forms a vivid childhood memory for me.

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