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I have not written on this blog for a very long time. 

When I think about all the many changes in our lives and what to say, I guess I have been avoiding trying to tackle any of this here. 

I am working through a delightful book, "The Artists Way" , A spiritual path to higher creativity by Julia Cameron. It is an old book, at least 30 years old, but it really holds a great deal within its pages. as I draw to the end, I feel creatively more confused that certain and that is a really good thing for now. 

This morning I read her words in the final chapter that really jarred. 

" Our truest dream for ourselves is always God's will for us," highlighting the connection between aligning our inner desires and divine purpose to foster creativity and faith. The chapter, "Recovering a Sense of Faith," emphasizes that the creative process is one of surrender, not control, and requires trusting that our deepest aspirations originate from a divine source.  

Why was this jarring?

It flies in the face of everything I was taught about myself and who God is. 

Thinking about this and how see myself  spurred me on this morning to  tackle this blog. 

I  spent some time renaming it. I like it. It reflects more realistically where we are. 

This is more honest and is one of the things that has shifted for me.

How do we reflect more realistically , Gods love of us, if we create these unreachable

 facades of what is?

Our children are grown up and no long the little boys in these pictures. 

We are  all and each on a journey. Walking on the path before us. 

These paths have brought such delight and surprise. 

 For some who read this , this will mean I have "lost" my faith in Jesus. To the contrary, I am discovering who he really is. 

It has no small thing to find yourself rethinking many of the foundational  faith ideas

and it is easy to toss out than to rebuild. This is particularly so when coming from the a strongly "certain" based, fear creating faith with very narrow parameters. 

I continue to wrestle with many of the old ideas that were drilled into us. 

I will share why I believed these ideas so deeply and readily too. 

I will hopefully get to share some of these with  you , readers, over the next while. 

For the many who have experienced much of what I will write about in the coming pages, you are not alone. Sadly, but not surprisingly. some have no faith in Jesus anymore.  To those I continue to journey with, you are beautiful and true. 

I am so grateful for the many Christ followers, who have encourage me . There are countless. Many may not even know who they are but I acknowledge you . 

Let me begin.